Okay

I’m okay

See my smile

My face even has the right crinkles, the ones around my eyes

I’m showing all my teeth

I must be okay

Why wouldn’t I be okay

Don’t I have friends

family

They seem to like me well enough

So I must be okay

I have a career

a roof over my head

food and clothes

Why wouldn’t I be okay

Sure I wake up feeling a gaping hole in me

An endless emptiness

A need to just not feel

to fall asleep and never wake again

Sure I feel there is nothing of value at all

But I must still be okay

Why wouldn’t I be

I show all the correct signs of being okay

I say all the right okays at all the right times

I don’t cut off my hair or tear up my clothes

I asked for help and they gave me those tiny pills

The tiny yellow pills and the blue ones too

So I must be okay

I smile, don’t I?

so I’m obviously okay.

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